Okay, so... A lot of you may or may not know me. This is my real life story. I don't really know who would read this, but.... I figured, I would, let you all know what I am like. Yeah, there was an issue with some people here. Yeah, I made a mistake of doing what I did, if you all heard or saw it. Yeah, I know sorry will not be enough to fix what I did. I just, want to let everyone know, just because someone you know, may have something, I have, doesn't mean it's the same. Different people, will have different... symptoms? if you can say it like that. I know this is the internet, but I feel like I need to speak up and, say what I think should be said. That is, I'm a f***ing idiot, but, I have a heart of gold. I have helped many of my friends with being an ear to them... But I am a human and I made mistakes... Sometimes its hard for me to just move on, but there is always that part where, I want to fix what I messed up... What maybe easy for you, is hard for me. I just, felt the need to speak my mind out of character. I want to show, that with Borderline Personality Disorder, is not an excuse and different with different people. Its hard for me to differ RL with RP. Again, maybe easy for you, but hard for me... All I ask, is that one chance to fix and prove, I'm not that bad of a person... That I'm not... an attention seeker.

This is just, me speaking my mind and me wanting all to know... I'm so sorry for what I did, and I wish I can turn back time to where we all had a good time... I just felt so... Worthless, outcasted, and other bullsh*t due to what I went through before coming onto this site, but, I don't know who to talk too about it... Yes, I am seeking professional help, but he has a personality of a mop... But for a little highlight to the writer behind this girl... people may or may not hate. I am not looking for sympathy, hate, or told, "You shouldn't talk that way in your blog about your RL life." Well, you and I are not the same. I feel the need to express my thoughts and this is the way I want to do it... This is probably going to be a long blog, but, I feel it is needed. You can take this however you want. I am not here to hate anyone, I am not here to be hated. Yes, what I, again did, was wrong. I should have thought about it, but my mind, wanted to go into a different direction and there's nothing I really could have done, because of how my brain works. 

Obviously, no one is the same, obviously, we all think differently. Yeah, people have that hard exterior, speaking what is on their mind without holding back, but there are people, who, cannot do that, for fear, they will lose all they consider friends. I wanted to take everything that was said to me and keep it in my thought. I did. I did what I thought was right, trying to follow what was asked or said, I should/shouldn't do. Yeah, friends come, and friends go. We all have those moments that we do... things that are, random and weird. i am sorry, if I am trying to be all like, "LOOK AT ME! I AM AN ATTENTION SEEKER LOOKING FOR PITTY!" which, I am not looking for pitty. I just want my thoughts out there. I, again, am not seeking attenion... I know I have said that over and over in this post, but... This is helpful for me to, express how I feel. I took everything in thought, which I should have done in the first place, but, my "excuse" got in the way. I say "excuse" with the marks, because I say, "My disorders, cause me to do this.." which isn't meant to be taken as a "oh, feel bad for me." It should be taken as, "Okay, calm yourself. Come back, talk about your thoughts, if you wish, and we can take a few steps into another direction."

My disorders include: Borderline Personality Disorder (Not sure how many knows what this is, but its pretty common, message if you want to know more about it.) Schizotypal disorder (Listed below), ADHD/ADD, PTSD, Bipolar, Chronic Depression.

• Schizotypal personality disorder typically includes five or more of these signs and symptoms:

1. Being a loner and lacking close friends outside of the immediate family
2. Flat emotions or limited or inappropriate emotional responses
3. Persistent and excessive social anxiety
4. Incorrect interpretation of events, such as a feeling that something that is actually harmless or inoffensive has a direct personal meaning.
5. Peculiar, eccentric or unusual thinking, beliefs or mannerisms
6. Suspicious or paranoid thoughts and constant doubts about the loyalty of others
7. Belief in special powers, such as mental telepathy or superstitions
8. Unusual perceptions, such as sensing an absent person's presence or having illusions
9. Peculiar style of speech, such as vague or unusual patterns of speaking, or rambling oddly during conversations

I just, want things to be, understood of my actions. You, again, can hate me, delete me, block me, but I am going to speak my mind, like many others do. Think I'm an idiot if you want. Say, "Well, everyone has issues and shouldn't make you special. I have mental issues, but I take a break from sh*t. You should too." Or whatever. Showing awareness for these, disorders, over the internet, needs to be, brought to light because, you may, or may not, miss out on a person, that could be a true friend.

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Heeiiyya! Younggi's admin here!
First of all, thank you for being kind to my baby!
Second of all, this is by no means a set of rules. It's more of a guidelines of sorts.

I really took a challenge when I decided to create a blind character. I know this is not a light subject and I don't want to romanticize disabilities, this is why I try my best to do it justice. 
That being said, I know it's hard to ignore some pictures (as it is hard for me to find pictures where Hobi doesn't make eye contact with the camera), so when that happens, and it is hard to hide the reason why, just pretend he (Younggi) isn't doing that. Sometimes, his brother will help him take better pictures by guiding him, sometimes it (the eye contact) just isn't there.

Texting. How is he able to text if he doesn't see? Simple. He uses his smartphone or computer helped by a screen reader. What is a screen reader? A screen reader, as it implies, reads the screen. It usually does this through synthesized speech. He rarely texts, though, since he is a big fan of sending voice mails. I just wanted to put it out there, in case your character will text him and he will answer back with a text message. Please, please don't ask him "how did you do that if you can't see?", because I don't think you would ask someone in real life that question. 

Other than insensitive questions, you are free to ask any other curiosities whether in character or not. 
Oh, and I am thinking about creating a Discord only for the sole purpose of roleplaying, but this is going to fall under the "TBA" tag. 

Thank you for taking time to read this.
Happy roleplaying!!

           Admin stuff:

• I go by K or Eli. Both are official nicknames and alias' I go by when roleplaying.
• I have a UK timezone. (GMT/BST)
• I'm friendly and easy going.
• I am 28, nearly 29. MDNI, sorry not sorry. 
• I'm gay and trans, any homo/transphobic or rude comments and remarks will be deleted.
• I only give my real name out to those I trust, especially online and such. 
• I do not and will not tolerate any ooc drama or bullying of any form
• I give 01 warning and chance to commincate, and sort things, before blocking/reporting/deleting.
• I have health issues, severe episodes of dissociation and a partner, and child irl, outside of roleplay, my heath and family come before everything else. However if I haven't replied on here or discord in a few days, then please feel free to give me a little message or nudge of sorts, I don't bite. 
• I may add you first, but not talk first, if this is the case, please bare with me, I have anixety. 
• I play my characters for me and in no way, shape or form do I intend to offend or upset any person, company or member that I play. 
• Always in character. If ooc I will put some form of symbol before hand, such as ## or //. 
  
  
  
  
  Rules:
• Strictly mxm in terms of romance and heavier/more mature themes but female friends are more than welcome. 
• If you don't like mature, dark/angsty themes or swearing, or are easily triggered, I'd suggest to skip over adding. 
• I highly appreciate and value respect, communication and effort. 
• Do not bring ic drama into ooc and vice versa. 
• If your not looking for/interested in long term or more serious writing, then note I am or skip past this profile. 
• Roleplaying or casual chatting is completely fine. 
• Don't be a d*ck, this is a place for writing, creativity and fun, let's keep it that way. 
• Please respect my decisions. 
• Don't hound or bug me for replies, even if I appear online or active on feed, sometimes I may be busy or ill, or just can't concentrate, or I am distracted, or have forgotten. Or simply not in the mood, but either way - I do have a habit of zoning out a lot, it's nothing personal but either way, I don't want to write up half assed replies. However, little nudges and reminders here and there are okay and welcomed. 
• If bored or away for a long period of time and/or we have something long term going in RP, please try and let me know, and I'll try to do so, also. You owe me nothing, and I owe you nothing, but it would be nice and highly appreciated. 
• No controlling or god modding my character(s), especially outside of exceptions made and prior discussion. I do not appreciate that. i don't control you or your charact(s) so please don't do so do me or to mine. 
• Effort x effort, if you make an effort with me then I will make an effort back. Respect me, I'll respect you. It's really as simple as that. I don't want any drama or conflict. And if there are any changes need made anywhere or are any mistakes/ or issues, I would honestly prefer to adjust or sort things out, which means talking and listening. 
  
  
  
  
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• I write in both 1st and 3rd person narritive, but it is often 3rd, as that's usually what my writing partner(s) are comfortable with and not just as far as writing styles and what not, but overall, I'd prefer both parties are and were comfortable. 
• I often do multi-au's and my discord is my main, but I mostly use for RP and there, I'm multi-muse/multi-ship as everything is seperated/unique, however multi-ship doesn't seem to work in my case, so I've resorted back to single-ship relationships for my character(s), at least on the site. 
• Let me know if you're up for creating, inviting and/or sharing a private or group RP server on discord. 
• Please understand, and I repeat, please understand that all relationships/drama is purely in character (ic) only, and that outside of the site or roleplay, and the worldwide web, I have a partner and child, so any flirting, relationship or enemie storylines/ic drama, is purely that, and stays IC. Please and thank you, in advance.
• Whilst reply length and replying times may often vary, on each side, I always try to match lengths or detail, and am usually moderate to fast in replying. 
• If you lie I will find out one way or another, so my advice is not to bother.
• I do have discord, so please just ask, if you don't already have it.  
• English is my native/first language, if it isn't yours then please just let me know. 
• Typos and errors happen, mistakes happen, all I ask is to try your best. 
• Mature, dark, potentially triggering themes. Trigger warnings fyi, will always be issued when appropriate. 
• I repeat, as mentioned above, do not and will not tolerate unnecessary, ooc dram or bullying of any form. 
• If something is wrong or you have a question, and so on, let's communicate and talk it out, over DM's. I will always try my best to message and communicate if needed or when I can, so all I ask is for the same back. 
• Communication and respect are highly important to me. Don't lie to me and don't be a d*ck. 
• This is a single ship account. I can play, with exceptions or prior discussion other muses but Yoongi/Agust is my main fc/character. 
• I do have health issues, both physically and mentally, and I have ptsd, however, ironically enough I'm not usually easily triggered, at least not when it comes to gore or dark/angsty themes, and such, however if something I see triggers me, I will say something or report such, depending on what it is/was, and secondly, I'll always try to post a trigger warning or disclaimer of sorts, before I post certain stuff, such as triggering posts. 
• Please, let's work up to romance and more mature themes.
• I can and will add, modify, change or remove details and/or rules as and when I feel it's necessary or deem fit. 

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　　　　　　GENERAL INFORMATION.



　　　　NAME — Kim

　　　　ALIAS — Namjoon

　　　　NICKNAMES — NJ, Joon, Joonie, Namu

　　　　SPECIES — human

　　　　AGE — 27 years old

　　　　BIRTHDAY — 12th September 1994

　　　　BIRTHSTONE — Sapphire

　　　　ASTROLOGICAL ZODIAC — virgo

　　　　CHINESE ZODIAC — dog

　　　　OCCUPATION — idol, songwriter and producer

　　　　SOCIAL CLASS — N/A

　　　　AVERAGE INCOME — N/A

　　　　LIVING ARRANGMENT — An apartment in Seoul, South Korea

　　　　CURRENT LOCATION — Seoul, South Korea

　　　　BIRTHPLACE — Dongjak-gu, Seoul, South Korea

　　　　NATIONALITY — Korean

　　　　ETHNICITY — Korean

　　　　RACE — Asian

　　　　BLOOD TYPE — A

　　　　SEX — male.

　　　　GENDER — cisgender.

　　　　SEXUALITY — gay & demisexual & demiromantic

　　　　POSITION —  switch = sub/bottom lean

　　　　RELATIONSHIP STATUS — single

　　　　PAST RELATIONSHIPS — a few

　　　　RELIGION — atheist

　　　　EDUCATION — Master of Business Administration program in Advertising and Media

　　　　LANGUAGES — fluent in Korean, English, Japanese, Chinese, German and Italian, understands a little Spanish and French



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　　　　　　APPEARANCE.



　　　　CLOTHING STYLE — pretty much comfortable, baggy clothes, but elegant too

　　　　HEIGHT — 1.81m

　　　　WEIGHT — 70kg

　　　　FIGURE — does have some muscles, pretty tall

　　　　DISTINCTIVE FEATURES — chest & dimples

　　　　SCARS — on his knee and a few others by smaller accidents

　　　　TATTOOS or MARKINGS  — N/A

　　　　SCENT — N/A

　　　　COMPLEXION — tan skin

　　　　NATURAL HAIR COLOUR — dark brown

　　　　CURRENT HAIR COLOUR — brown

　　　　EYE COLOUR — dark brown

　　　　VOICE — deep, warm and quiet



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　　　　　　PERSONALITY.



　　　　MBTI — INFP

　　　　DISPOSITION — pessimistic

　　　　ALIGNMENT — lawful neutral

　　　　POSITIVE TRAITS — caring, curious, loyal , intelligent, very kindhearted

　　　　NEGATIVE TRAITS — easily sensitive, extremely anxious, overthinking, clingy

　　　　LIKES — animals, especially his dog Monie, poetry/writings, languages, music, his friends, food, tea, nature

　　　　DISLIKES — rejection, being alone, smell of smoke, seafood, his anxieties, being extremely sensitive

　　　　PET PEEVES — any kind of noises like eating noisily, loud breathing, loud snoring, selfish people

　　　　FEARS — rejection, losing people he likes/loves, being a replacement or not enough, getting a bad illness

　　　　HABITS — biting his lip or inner skin of his chin, making fists, rubbing/scratching his thighs (especially when nervous/stressed)

　　　　HOBBIES — reading, playing instruments, travelling, visiting museums, taking walks through the nature, taking care of his plants

　　　　LONG TERM GOALS — finding happiness

　　　　OBSESSIONS — bonsais

　　　　ADDICTIONS — N/A

　　　　ALLERGIES — dust

　　　　PHYSICAL HEALTH — pretty stable

　　　　MENTAL HEALTH — unstable

　　　　DISORDERS — generalized anxiety disorder, panic attacks, depression, occupational burnout, tachycardia (triggered through stress), phobic postural vertigo

　　　　STRENGTHS/ABILITIES — N/A

　　　　WEAKNESSES — perfectionist, extremely sensitive

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　　　　FAVOURITE COLOUR — dark blue, black & white

　　　　FAVOURITE ANIMAL — dog & koala

　　　　FAVOURITE FLOWER — clematis & roses

　　　　FAVOURITE FOOD — pizza, kalguksu, salad

　　　　FAVOURITE DRINK — any kind of tea, milkshakes, smoothies

　　　　FAVOURITE SHOW — la casa da papel

　　　　FAVOURITE MOVIE — call me by your name

　　　　FAVOURITE SONG — "let you down" by NF, "lonely" by JB and Benny Blanco & "if I killed someone for you" by Alec Benjamin

　　　　FAVOURITE BOOK — "please look after mother" by Kyung-Sook Shin & "the fault in our stars" by John Green

　　　　FAVOURITE POEM — "Maybe there's something you're afraid to say, or someone you're afraid to love, or somewhere you're afraid to go. It's gonna hurt. It's gonna hurt because it matters." by John Green

"It always shocked me when I realized that I wasn’t the only person in the world who thought and felt such strange and awful things." by John Green

　　　　FAVOURITE SEASON — fall

　　　　FAVOURITE WEATHER — sunny, not too hot, just that it feels comfortable

　　　　FAVOURITE TIME of DAY — morning and evening slowly going over to the night, basically sunrise & sunset

　　　　PRIZED POSSESSIONS — photographs with family & friends, my dog

　　　　IDEAL TYPE — should be fine with skinship, intelligent, likes music, animals or plants


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　　　　　　RELATIONSHIPS.



　　　　LOVER — N/A

　　　　FATHER — Kim Dae-jung ; alive

　　　　MOTHER — Kim Seo-yeon ; alive

　　　　BROTHER — N/A

　　　　SISTER — Kim Geong-min ; alive

　　　　CHILDREN — N/A

　　　　OTHER RELEVANT RELATIVES — alive

　　　　BEST FRIEND — N/A

　　　　CLOSE FRIENDS — N/A

　　　　ENEMIES — N/A

　　　　PETS — dog named Monie


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Admin:

pronounce: he|him / she|her
birthdate: 10th February 2001
age: 21

Rules:

- You must be ooc 18+ (please tell me your ooc age before rping!)

- Don't take control over my character.

- Only roleplaying semi lit up to lit, third person. If you roleplay like this *hugs you* then I will kindly tell you that they should stay at text talk, I don't like to roleplay like that, I am sorry.

- Please no littles, crossdresser, abo, hybrids or anything supernatural.
If you want to roleplay then please think about that I won't do this & it's totally fine if you don't want to roleplay anymore then.

- Understand that English isn't my first language, so mistakes are just mistakes and not forcefully done to annoy you.

- That doesn't mean though that I don't care about grammar etc. Typos are fine.

- Please, don't use "u", "r", "bcs", etc. during roleplaying.

- Please use any way to show that you talk ooc! I use as example this // before I write.

- Talk with me if you don't like something.

- I'm serious, please tell me if you are offline for a longer time and I will do so too. Because waiting is terrible and if we want our muses to have a connection then we need to work together on it and just disappearing and coming whenever you like doesn't help at all. If you have ooc a lot going on, just tell me. I can be very patient, but without telling me anything and coming back after weeks or months is a no-go.

- As well about deleting/disappearing and not coming back online. Not cool. Put always yourself in to that situation, how would you feel if people do that with you? It's not fun. At least give a heads up that you will be >deleting< , give some time to read and maybe talk in case we talked as well ooc.

- if you tend to be a person who just disappears and deletes whenever you want, DON'T talk/messages with my muse. He doesn't need to waste time on people who don't care about him enough to maybe take a break instead of straight of deleting.
Like said, if you need time you are welcome to say it ooc, after all ooc life comes first, but don't just do this.

✅ Fast replies (most of the time, serious bad for getting distracted)
✅ British admin (from the UK, GMT/BST timezone)
✅ My other profile ( https://www.asianroleplay.com/yoongiagustd/ )
✅ 1st & 3rd person (either is fine with me)


⛔ NO drama or bullsh*t (x2 chances then reported & blocked)
⛔ NO homophobic or transphobic bullsh*t (reported & blocked automatically)
⛔ NO bullying of ANY form (again, reported & blocked automatically)
⛔ MDNI 18 - 21+ only (sorry, not sorry, admin 28, no minors, no sketchy sh*t !!)


⚠ Admin is friendly and discord available (Discord is admin's personal - but mainly used for RP) 
⚠ Admin dissociates/zones out A LOT (Sorry, if replies are a little all over the place)
⚠ Admin has Anxiety, Depression & Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (Please be patient, and thank you in advance)
⚠ Admin will post trigger warnings ahead of any triggering/dark posts (Always try my best)